I WANT A PUPPY FOR MYSELF.
Crying in public.
That moment when you can no longer control your emotions and they spill over into your everyday life. Out in the world while you toss your head and turn away, you hope, you pray that you will someday have no time for the feeling that you have right at that moment.
Rushmore, 1998
Fuck you too.
I never thought this would be my life
it is not profound, moving or sad.
I have to learn things that I won’t tell you.
I have to deal with someone I don’t even know, who is so bored and sad with her own life that she decided to fuck with mine.
I have to deal with the feeling that everything is off-kilter and wrong.
I am re-adjusting to life.
I never thought it would be like this, but that’s fair to say.
Sometimes, it feels like I’m just settling for love. Like I’m the member of the band that’s about to break up because of his girlfriend. Like I’m about to ruin everything because of it.
But then I remember that I get to have you. Good, bad, everything. And even though it’s scary, it’s also right.
by a Deviant artist Begemott
Amazing. No question.
to be fleshed out later.
I almost feel nauseous as I realize I can never get what I want from you because you’ve already gotten it from somebody else.
I look fountains and gardens and urban areas and pennies and wishes and fish and trees and antiquity.
I will muse more about this later….
